In a short span of 10 months, Noah had gone thru 3 surgeries for his heart condition. Yes, the 3rd one just happened and he is still in the picu now.
Some have questioned us if it’s really a good idea of letting him go thru the pain again since he was having a pretty good quality of life. BUT we are not sure how long he can be with us.
As parents, we have to try all methods to make him well again. We shouldn’t take away his chance to extend his life. I may be selfish by putting him thru this intense pain but I did these all for his own good.
No one will understand the pain I have to go thru looking at him lying down with all the scary machines keeping him going. My heart, felt like they are being stabbed over and over again. If I could, I will chose to give my heart to him.
A mother’s heart… It takes another person who been thru the same to understand. But I hope no one will go thru what I’ve been thru so far.
Please, let this be one last time I beg you.
