Happy lunar new year to all! 
Those who finds it hard to please anyone are actually those who people find them hard to please.
The world doesn’t revolve around you only. If you only want your friends to do and say pleasing things to you, I am prolly not your kind of friend. I think I had done enough.
The other day while my sister was washing her hands at the washroom, she saw a mother cat carrying a kitten jumping into our office kitchen and disappeared into the cramped goods rack. We spent the whole afternoon “meowing” hopefully to lure the cats out. Took us 2 days to rescued 3 kittens (!!) out but the mum was nowhere to be seen. Yesterday we left the kittens outside the platform of the window where the mother cat jump in from with food and water in the paperbox. This morning all the kittens are gone. Lets hope they are reunited with the mum!
Bought some discounted voucher from VOUCHERLICIOUS for the CRS HAVEN shrimps some time back. Finally have time to collect them yesterday with my Sis. Topup for the ones with more shrimps. They are rather fun to look at. Heh
My uncle made this for us. He is super into plants these days and I really love how this porcupine-shape potted plants spice up my place.
Received the prada case and thumbdrive from D for Xmas. Love how it goes well with my Tokidoki Gelaskin and red Bearbrick. ^^
Join google and the rest on ANTI-SOPA: https://www.google.com/landing/takeaction/
More about SOPA and PIPA
Members of Congress are trying to do the right thing by going after pirates and counterfeiters but SOPA and PIPA are the wrong way to do it.
1. SOPA and PIPA would censor the Web
The U.S. government could order the blocking of sites using methods similar to those employed by China. Among other things, search engines could be forced to delete entire websites from their search results. That’s why 41 human rights organizations and 110 prominent law professors have expressed grave concerns about the bills.
2. SOPA and PIPA would be job-killers because they would create a new era of uncertainty for American business
Law-abiding U.S. internet companies would have to monitor everything users link to or upload or face the risk of time-consuming litigation. That’s why AOL, EBay, Facebook, Google, LinkedIn, Mozilla, Twitter, Yahoo and Zynga wrote a letter to Congress saying these bills “pose a serious risk to our industry’s continued track record of innovation and job-creation.” It’s also why 55 of America’s most successful venture capitalists expressed concern that PIPA “would stifle investment in Internet services, throttle innovation, and hurt American competitiveness”. More than 204 entrepreneurs told Congress that PIPA and SOPA would “hurt economic growth and chill innovation”.
3. SOPA and PIPA wouldn’t stop piracy
To make matters worse, SOPA and PIPA won’t even work. The censorship regulations written into these bills won’t shut down pirate sites. These sites will just change their addresses and continue their criminal activities, while law-abiding companies will suffer high penalties for breaches they can’t possibly control.
There are effective ways to combat foreign “rogue” websites dedicated to copyright infringement and trademark counterfeiting, while preserving the innovation and dynamism that have made the Internet such an important driver of American economic growth and job creation. Congress should consider alternatives like the OPEN Act, which takes targeted and focused steps to cut off the money supply from foreign pirate sites without making US companies censor the Web.
[All source from Google]
I really need to start loving myself more and stop abusing my own soul. I’ve been depressed long enough already.
Sorry my dear eyes… For making you cry so much for the past year.
Where are you, Anne from 3 years ago? I miss you.
You! Yes YOU! STOP refreshing my site already! LOL
I am back, after much persuasion & “pressuring” from my friends. Heh. It’s been over a year since I last blogged and I really need to set my momentum going to keep my blog alive again.
After blogging for almost over 10 years, part of me and my life belongs to the online world and needless to say I am grateful for the wounderful friends I met online who became great buddies in real life.
I won’t start all over again with all the usual introduction since most of my readers have been with me for so many years and they prolly know me inside out already.
I am starting my blogging journey afresh so I am leaving my old entires lockup. Old friends who are still interested to read back, just let me know so I can add you guys in okie?
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To be honest I really don’t know where to start lah. I really hate summarising my 2011 because it was one of the worst year which I hope it never exist in my life. (Except that my lovely Sister got married )
I lost my paternal grandma too suddenly. I “lost” a puppy which never meant to be mine. My relationship with my family hit the rock bottom. My maternal grandma had a bad fall which results to a big blood clot in her brain and causing her to have adverse effect on her memory.
We lost 嫲嫲 to what supposed to be a normal fits attack. She was admitted to ICU… then to HDU… to a normal ward and back to ICU. Possibly due to her weak immunity, she contracted some viruses in the hospital which worsen her situation and her organs starts to breakdown. It was so so painful seeing her go through dialysis at her age, suffering from unknown pain in her legs, getting more and more bloated when her kidney slowly stopped working. I dread visiting her at times because I don’t know how to comfort her when she was screaming in pain. But at the same time I was very worried that each visit will be the last time I will be seeing her.
Hospital became my most frequently visited place and it became a habit… we spent a few hours there after work, talking to the doctors, finding solutions to save her. The last time I saw my Dad being so depressed and troubled was probably when my Grandpa passed away many years back. When the doctors reveals that 嫲嫲 doesn’t have much time left, everyone was very persistent in keeping her with us. Even till the very last minutes, even if it means increasing the dosage of medication, the adults just keeps saying “try your best…”
The day came too fast… but was very thankful that everyone was with 嫲嫲 when she slowly slipped away from us… I still couldn’t forget the scene when the heart rate monitor starts beeping with a straight line… it was at that point of time so deafening to all of us. My heart frozed for the longest time. My tears couldn’t stop flowing. We have lost 嫲嫲 forever.
The wake of 嫲嫲 felt so oddly familiar… it reminds me of Grandpa. The same spot. Looking at her while she lies peacefully in the coffin, I couldn’t help but flashback to all the happier days when she was still healthy, loud and cheerful. Only she knows how to boil my favourite 当归黑鸡汤. She used to put soya sauce on the fried omelette which I still love today.
嫲嫲 we all miss you very much. :’)
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Now on the puppy that I love very much… which I still felt the pain whenever I think about it.
I have been thinking about having a pet dog for the longest time. Now that I have my own place, I thought it’s the perfect time to fulfil my wish. D and I have been talking about it and finally put our plans to work by visiting the petshop in Pasir Ris Farmway. I already have in mind that I will get a Japanese Spitz because they are white, small yet intelligent. After a long search, we finally found this shop that sells Spitz and they have a couple for us to choose from. Before hand we didn’t discuss which gender to get but this male puppy caught our attention and when we carry it into our arms, he fits so perfectly. Could remember when was the last time I fell in love at 1st sight but Biru (which we decided to name him with) certainly set our heart fluttering when we 1st set our eyes on him.
D asked if I need some time to consider. At that point of time, I really didn’t want to lose him. What if he got sold after we walk away?! It seems like heaven’s will that I have enough cash with me to put a deposit for him. So I said, LETS DO IT!
After signing the receipt, asking all the questions that a 1st time owner needs to know, we went off happily thinking about what to shop for Biru. We could only collection him 4 weeks later so all we can do is just WAIT.
I couldn’t sleep that night because all I can think of was Biru Biru Biru. I was pacing up and down the living room thinking of the perfect spot to place a playpen for him. My weekends were spent at petshop shopping for his neccessities. I read nothing but pet forum. I look forward to visiting him every weekend before it’s time to collect him.
But things took a sudden change just 1 week before collection.
I suddenly questioned myself if I could do it. Am I good enough to be a good owner for Biru? Am I financially stable for him? Am I ready to be home early, sacrifice my social life for him, walk him everyday, take care of him if I have my own kids one day?
Talked to many dog owner friends and all of them encourage me saying that they have faith in me and I simply think too much. But I don’t know why I just couldn’t convince myself thou. My anti-dog mum isn’t helping much either by discouraging me everyday. :/
All I can do all day was cry… because I suddenly felt very lost and I don’t know what to do. People thought I siao cry so much for a dog that I haven’t even brought back home.
After much consideration… I decided to give up on Biru. I made the decision because I didn’t want to be one of those heartless owner who gave up the dog after bringing them back, giving them the false hope that this is their forever home and only to give them away later. Perhaps Biru haven’t even register who I am to him. Maybe I am just one of the many people who have carried him before. *sigh*
This left sucha huge impact on me that I cried whenever I see dogs on the street… walk past a petshop… saw my friends posted anything about dogs on facebook. I had to remove the wallpaper from my phone because it’s the photo of Biru. A couple of weeks later when I thought I felt better already, I received the dog tags that I ordered with Biru’s name engraved on it. My world came crushing down again.
No matter how hard I tried not to think about it… his cute face is still fresh in my memory. Time like these I wish I could do a selective memory reset and forget about Biru thoroughly… 
I still have all the stuff i got for him. I couldn’t bear to sell or give them away because deep down inside I thought I might still have the chance to use them.
Yesterday the itchy backside me went to visit a petshop @ Serangoon Gardens and they have a Japanese Spitz for sales. UGH. They are still my favourite breed. Maybe… just maybe one day, I will convince myself that I will be a good owner and fulfil my wish of having a pet dog… Maybe…
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Wah can’t believe my 1st entry can be this lengthy. I better stop here and leave the rest of my story for other entires.
Have a great weekend peeps!
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